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LIFE: it is what it is. [Nov. 27th, 2007|03:40 pm]
andrew
[Current Location |My bff janice's room]
[state of mind |rejuvenatedrejuvenated]
[sounds |madonna. HUNG UP.]

Wow... where to start. college is horrible.. i feel so out of place.. but then agian i don't feel like i would be happy at a college in the city or anywhere really .... i just really need a cigarette. i need to feel better, i need to be loved and to love someone else. i am a complete ghost of who i used to be or who i thought i used to be, i feel like im a nut job. i feel like everyone has this perfect life where they feel fine. and they have nothing wrong.. they go about their business and they feel fine... i feell like a train wreck and.... <------written a while ago.

I'm turning over a new leaf
im trying to be what i wasn't in highschool.
i've started going to every class and making the most of EVERYDAY.
i really don't drink anymore except for that run in i had with the capt on saturday. but I was celebrating thanksgiving with mercedes and shae. which was a blast until i had to listen to the two of them for FOUR and HALF hours.
but everything is slowly getting back to normal. im going to see the psychaitrist because i realize that i can't do this by myself.
im still looking for love in all the wrong places.. but online searching seems to be the best idea because i can't go to bars yet.
i am acting again.. and starting to get back to the studio.. its been years since i danced and i really want to get back into it.
I miss a lot of people.. but mostly those who i haven't really had a connection with in a VERY long time.
but im coming home for X mas so i should be re conecting somewhat.
all for now. i'll write more later. off to class. .
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old shore memories: the poem [Aug. 22nd, 2007|12:14 am]
andrew
waves of the cool blue ocean..avenue


crash
on the sand
like the way you made my heart feel
when we were just of an up and coming age.
i thought i knew what i wanted.
you thought you knew what you wanted.
but time slid swiftly through our fingers
as our parents drifted off to sleep
on that atlantic beach we called home for the summer.
and people came and went
in and out of our lives like a farce- comedy on stage that we would sit through all winter long .. just itching to feel that summer breeze on our skin.
to roll in the sand and burn the soles of our shoes and melt them into the gravel and the asphalt of the sea isle city streets.
which, even when a cool wind came upon us. scorched like it had been hit with sun beams all day long
and there were the crazy antics of the kids down the street
who you knew of, and saw almost everyday, but hadn't the slightest idea of their stories.
and you think now, do they remember this, summer dreaming and summer time lullabys like i have?
and the tan, lifeguards who never spoke a word, but to say "blue fish! get outta the wooter" that red flag they twirled forever it seemed until all had exited the waters clear, salty blue arms.
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(no subject) [Aug. 15th, 2007|12:40 pm]
andrew
[Current Location |dorm]
[sounds |the soft lull of lower harvard square traffic.]

I took mercedes down to where her train was coming in earlier this morning and i just got back. i took the red line to the orange line and took her to her train and then came back... it only took 1 1/2 hours!!!!? wow.

Yesterday, I had been thinking a lot about my life and I thought a lot about how my decisions effect others' and how i can possibly make a difference in the world. however, up until this point thats all i ever thought about.. was others. i never really thought about myself... i was always worried what, and how other people were feeling. and I used these tactics of only thinking about others to deflect the attention off of me and focus on them. I used drugs and other escape methods because when i was sober i was alone with all of my thoughts and feelings and fears... and they would consume me. it wasn't so much that I was using drugs to "NUMB the pain" but more of an escape from myself. a way to be with myself and be alone but be with a completely different person. I tried journaling like this .. however, it always ended up being really superficial and childish.. something like " OMG This weekend was amazing and i watched alot of movies and mercedes and I slept alot and blah blah blah <333333 XD" but i feel that i've grown out of that stage... and not to say i don't enjoy writing things like that, because yes, it is okay to have some attention or want to be outrageous.. but not always. I have never really shown this side of me to anyone before. I mean, sure i was in therapy for a while but that was all question and answer.. it wasn't so much me as it was them trying to save me from myself. So i never really said much of anything in a straight - up sort of upfront fashion.. it was mostly very vague answers.

so, I called my dad, after thinking all of this through, and i explained to him exactly how I was feeling about pretty much the past 6 or 7 years... MY mother and And my father never really got a long.. and for as long as I can remember, they never really tried to make it work. SO all my life i have been choosing sides of which person to belive and which person to trust. and I have an un dying love for both of them... but theres a difference between loving your parents and getting along with them and trusting them. My mom and dad were not mean people but they pushed me bak and forth between eachother and embedded different opinions of eachother in me. and now its just so frustrating to , just now realizaing that I can make it okay, for myself, maybe nt for anyone else. try to figure out who and what to believe and trust.

im going to be leaving harvard on friday and i start school in september. im so nervous.
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bricks on the street [Aug. 14th, 2007|05:36 pm]
andrew
my first attempt at turning my crazy mess of a life into a poem.


he sits

calmly
watching those lights and nights flash by on the city streets,
he wonders what they are doing there. where they are going, to whom they are speaking
and he wonders what joy , pain , sorrow, fears they've felt before. were they the same as the ones they are going to see. and when they get there what will they talk about. forgoten journeys discussed over a cigarette and a half- consumed cup of coffee? he sits and wonders this
and the brick on the side walk of this founders town glistens in the sun and moonlight and even the slightest bit of dirt can't take away its beauty. becasue to him this is his new home. this is his new life. like the brick who has long stood fast in the smae spot and had so many different variations of the same surface. water, urine, spit, ash, dirt. all these difernt substances have come into contact with the poor brick existence however now. it is changed. soemtimes for the better sometimes for the bad. but its still there. waiting.
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H-O-M-E F i N A lLY!!!!! [May. 16th, 2007|02:39 pm]
andrew
[Current Location |the oakley schoo in UTAH... ew.]
[state of mind |accomplishedaccomplished]
[sounds |none]

O M G. Im coming home for good in 2 1/2 weeks! im graduating high school and im done with treatment im going to harvard for summer school and then off to lasell in the fall wish me luck fuckers
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MY WEEKEND [Apr. 5th, 2006|09:59 am]
andrew
[Current Location |oakley school library]
[state of mind |nostalgicnostalgic]
[sounds |vnv nation- solitary]

SO my weekend was pretty chill, i hung out with my friends over the weekend. my dad was super cool this weekend . i stayed with him in park city thiss weekend, and had a bunch of fun .
on thursday night we went to the outlet stores and i bought cute new shoes, from pacsun. EWWWWWW. SKATER BOIS!ha ha . OMG i've changed so much , right now im wearing a pink shirt with khakis and my anch necklace, and a pair of DC'S they are black with white writing. im in school right now. and im soo bored. so anyways back to my weekend. it was parents weekend and my dad came out to see me in UTAH. we went to park city and had a blast. like i said on thursday night we went to the outlet stores.on friday we went to this resturant called the blind dog. and i had fondue.IT WAS SO GOOD <3. then that night i went to a oakley pool party at the hampton inn. i gushed over my friend adam. hes really hot. and im so boy crazy its not even funny. i miss men so much . i feel like i haven;t been with a guy since i got sent away . and its freaking me out. snyway. we went to ruby tuesday at like 1:00 in the morning.my dad went with me. it was katie, lindsey, adam,cabell, allana and I. it was really fun. I MISS YOU GUYS AT HOME SOOO MUCH IT REMINDED ME OF MINELLAS ON FRIDAY NIGHTS. I MISS THAT SO MUCH W/O THE DRUGS.
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im home on a visit [Mar. 8th, 2006|06:40 pm]
andrew
[state of mind |nostalgicnostalgic]
[sounds |assemblage 23 : drive]

well im home from treatment and im doing fine . i was at island view for 9 months and now im at another school
to mercedes: the letter i sent you wasn't my dad speaking it was me. i still think about you alot and hope you are doing well . i hear you;re with keyth now. good for you . if your happy im glad your happy. okay this is going to sound kinda cheesy but i do miss you and although all we've been through alot
i will still behere sooner or later if you want to talk . we can communicat through LJ im really looking forward to hearing from you , love always your gothic king
andrew deitch
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IM ON A LEAVE OF ABSENCE FROM TREATMENT! [Jul. 15th, 2005|11:02 am]
andrew
[state of mind |creativecreative]
[sounds |nono]

hey guys it's andrew, i'm somewhere in UTAH! someplace i thought i'd never be. anyways its really beautiful out here, i'm working out some issues, and i hope you guys take a good look at your lives.
this has been quite a ride for me and its no where near over i love you all and hope you are all doing well, let me live my life the way i feel makes me happy and if you really carer for me you'll know that this is going to be the best thing.

love,
andrew.



P.s I'm almost 17! hooray!
MWAH.
- your gothic king.
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andrew is gone... [Apr. 25th, 2005|08:45 pm]
andrew

this is andrew's girlfriend (haha what an oxymoron...andrew's girlfriend... but yep thats me.)

so i probably should have posted this a while ago but he has been in a 'program' for the last 2 months because he got expelled for xanax. he is out in like utah or wherever and he can't talk to anyone... that type of thing so yes for anyone who noticed, he did just disappear off the face of the earth... i can't tell you anything more specific but you can always say hi to me if youwant!my lj. i'm sure he will get in touch with you all when he comes home.

♥ Mercedes


x-posted myspace
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stolen from a bunch of people. [Feb. 8th, 2005|08:37 pm]
andrew
[state of mind |soreitchy]
[sounds |tori amos: silent all these years]

If you read this,
even if i don't speak to you often,
you must post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad,
just so long as it happened.
Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you....

DO IT. iam going through hard times and i need to be nostalgic.
so please. please. HELP ME OUT<3♥<3
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PITCURES!!!!♥ [Feb. 8th, 2005|10:24 am]
andrew
some recent pics of me that i took while i was grounded
sitting so long with these pictures of youCollapse )
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(no subject) [Feb. 8th, 2005|10:12 am]
andrew
[state of mind |stressedstressed]
[sounds |THE.BIRTHDAY.MASSACRE: to die for ♥]


I'm an Art Student!
Take Which High School Stereotype Are You? today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Personality Test Generator.</p>


WOOt. yeah so things have been pretty hard lately. last tuesday i got kicked out of school
well actually suspended indefietly for buying and taking 3 XANAX in school. yeah i know im a fuck up. oh well. my dad and mom are thinking about sending me away to "bored"ing school. mercedes thinks its a good idea however im kinda skeptical as to what it would be like. but i guess now im willing to try anything but hilltop. my dad grounded me for the weekend. it was bad because anne wasn't here half the time ( she went back to state college ) and my mom was up in the mountains all weekend, so i couldn't seek shelter there. we fought incessantly. so yesterday i went to my first REHAB meeting. i don't think i really need it. i have stopped doing dex for about 1 month and the last "drug" i did was xanax. which wouldn;t have been SUCH A BIG DEAL, if i hadn't told my dad some shit lie about someone drugging my drink. idiot. so yeah... i didn't get to see dresden and i could hang out or even see mercedes. i'm hoping that will change because he's taken the tension off a little bit.
Also: I WOULD LIKE TO TAKE THIS OPPORTUNITY TO THANK MERCEDES LEE FISHER FOR EVERYTHING SHE'S DONE.
I ♥ YOU. so im going to go do laundry as to prevent any further confrontation with the male parental unit. CIAO!
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(no subject) [Jan. 8th, 2005|12:07 am]
andrew
i want a coin operated boyCollapse )
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new favorite song bitches [Jan. 4th, 2005|05:48 pm]
andrew
[state of mind |depresseddepressed]
[sounds |vnv nation on a loop ( dark angel )]

In your dream you see me clear I have no restraint, no fear Powerless I watched from faces I'd assumed. My purpose set. My will defined. Caress the air. Embrace the skies. Escape the sorrow and restraint of mortal cities. Give me time I will be clear. Given time you'll understand What posesses me to right what you have suffered. I'm in this mood because of scorn. I'm in a mood for total war. To the darkened skies once more and ever onward. So many years I stood among the thoughts and tears of those I served. Among my own I was alone through my own doing. All the years I walked unknown behind the faces I assumed. Powerless to clear your mind of what you'd suffered. They fall again. They fall again. Give me time I will be clear. Given time you'll understand What posesses me to right what you have suffered. I'm in this mood because of scorn. I'm in a mood for total war. To the darkened skies once more and ever onward. There is no faith in which to hide. Even truth is filled with lies. Doubting angels fall to walk among the living. I'm in this mood because of scorn. I'm in a mood for total war. To the darkened skies once more and ever onward. I'd only come here seeking peace. I'd only come here seeking me. It seems I came to leave. © VNV Nation
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DaY AFTER christmas. bah humbug. [Dec. 26th, 2004|06:09 am]
andrew
[state of mind |thirstythirsty]
[sounds |PLACEBO- pure morning]

morning.. this entire vaction has been so fucked up. 1st i got my teeth done. then i got into numerous fights with my angry father. my mom got beat up again, and now we put the guy in jail and he got out on bail and the fuck ass got in a car accident.

x-mas was okay i guess. mercedes came over for x-mas eve dinner. my dad made her pineapple tofu ( she said it was okay but i thought it tasted like uber cardboard)
then she left and that night i called her house
and i supposed to go out with her, keyth and ariella, but her stepdad found out and freaked.
" you are a manipulative little faggot, who doesn't love my daughter." ( first of all mercedes dad died when she was 3 so he can't say that and plus her mom isn;t and never was married to the guy.) "and i ruined their christmas, and that she is as stupid as my mom in her decision making skills when it comes to choosing men."
mercedes freaked.

christmas day was fun went to my moms helped her cook, saw my grandmom, she got me the coolest hat and gloves. AND I GOT 300$ altogether. plus abunch of crappy shit my mom got me. she was going to get me the clapper but she was like ahhh no. and today im going to the mall with emrcedews and morgan. YAY
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(no subject) [Dec. 15th, 2004|01:02 am]
andrew
[state of mind |sicksick]
[sounds |basmentjaxx- romeo]

so today sucked i satayed home sick because of LA grippe. i downloaded a bunch of cool songs for cedes' party, its going to be abfab to the power of rainbow. just like us. anyways i hopefully convinced morgan to settle things with mercedes. their fight the other day REALLY upset me.
well i guess thats all for now
:::::PEACHES:::::::
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(no subject) [Dec. 11th, 2004|02:22 pm]
andrew
[state of mind |artisticartistic]
[sounds |vnv nation-standing]

Your Life: The Soundtrack

Created by aiko and taken 16190 times on bzoink!

Opening creditsnothing better-the postal service
Waking uplightness-deathcabforcutie
Average daycherry lips- garbage
First datebrand new colony- the postal service
Falling in lovefriday im in love- the cure
Love scenein your eyes there is god- rikki beadle blair
Fight sceneCold- static x
Breaking upshut your mouth-garbage
Getting back togethersuch great hieghts- the postal service
Secret love you'll never know-sienna& mercides
Life's okay carbon- vnv nation
Mental breakdowndizzy-orgy
Drivingpaint it black -vnv nation
Learning a lessontransalanticism- death cab for cutie
Deep thoughtstanding(still)-vnv nation
Flashbackwe came to dance- vnv nation
Partyingpersonal jesus- mm
Happy danceget happy-happythoughthall
Regretingvelvet acid christ-hallucinagen
Long night alone blue monday- new order
Death scenedeah of an interior designer
Closing creditsthis place is a prison-tps

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(no subject) [Dec. 8th, 2004|02:46 am]
andrew
[state of mind |sleepysleepy]
[sounds |vnv nation- standing motion]

SSophisticated
LLoving
UUnnatural
TTame
_
MMisunderstood
AAmorous
CControversial
HHealthy
IInnocent
NNice
EEccentric

Name / Username:


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(no subject) [Dec. 7th, 2004|11:47 pm]
andrew
Bryan Erickson
You are Bryan Erickson of Velvet Acid Christ. The
poor man's Ogre, you are notorious for causing
trouble on the intar-web, and getting into
flame wars with elitist R.M.I. posters. Your
DRUGS ANGST SATAN schtick plays well with angry
teenagers.


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(no subject) [Dec. 7th, 2004|11:45 pm]
andrew
Bill Leeb
You are Bill Leeb of Frontline Assembly. Also known
as "El Leebo", "The
Leebinator", etc. From your rampant
sampling, to your silly lyrics, to the
Impostor-Leeb fiasco at WGT2002, you are the
classic target for industrial mockery. You're
also making piles off Delerium, so you don't
complain about it much.


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(no subject) [Dec. 7th, 2004|11:43 pm]
andrew
Ronan Harris
You are Ronan Harris of VNV Nation. You have
probably single-handedly sold more Access Virus
synthesizers than their entire marketing
campaign. Your reused presets leave everything
you do sounding almost identical, including
your remixes and production for other bands.
You carry a sword, you carry a sword (through a
battlefield).


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(no subject) [Dec. 7th, 2004|11:39 pm]
andrew
Love and Sex With Your Friends by dannygrl0129
Username
Sex
Favorite Color
Love of your life:kt_is_green
Best sex of your life:__lovespirals
Will make you come 1000 times:xdarkxxsecretsx
Will break your heart:solikearose87
Best Kisser:lizzie_beth
Best cuddler:redemily
You secretly dream of:technopudding
But this person dreams of you:withmyonelast
Will handcuff you and screw you silly:pretty_plain
Quiz created with MemeGen!
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heeeeeelp [Dec. 5th, 2004|11:48 pm]
andrew
[state of mind |tiredtired]
[sounds |death cab for cutie- sound of settling( i wish it ends soon]

sooo. this week has been crazy. see theres this boy that i like. JP. and he has a girlfriend. Christy. i have a girlfriend. mercedes but shes a lesbian so its okay with her for me to swoon over boys. anywho im really upset because i don;t know what to do



sugesstions!!!!!
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(no subject) [Dec. 5th, 2004|11:46 pm]
andrew
[state of mind |highhigh]
[sounds |apoptygma berzerk- starsign]

Stephan Groth
You are Stephan Groth of Apoptygma Berzerk. You're
responsible for the Norwegian Invasion. With
each album, you become progressively poppier,
and more successful. You also have a major Rock
Star complex, and refuse to play a show if free
socks are not provided. An obscene amount of
your material is plagiarized. Most agree your
last album was bunk.


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i love apop
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(no subject) [Nov. 17th, 2004|09:06 pm]
andrew
NAme:::ANDRew aka peaches a la MODE
LOcation:::: PA. psh it fucking sucks.
Age:::16
WHO brought me here!!!::: MORGASM!(pretty_plain)
I LOOOVE michael alig because he pushed the envelope and he was f-a-b-u-l-o-u-s
BLONDE he's soooo FREEZE!!!!* sex pot w/pink hair.
VNV nation
FUNKER VOGT
scissor sisters
Can't come quickly enough - scissor sisters
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(no subject) [Nov. 17th, 2004|09:02 pm]
andrew
[state of mind |madonna-y]
[sounds |SiSters of mercy]



Take the Which Madonna Video Are You? Quiz

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(no subject) [Nov. 15th, 2004|04:00 am]
andrew
[state of mind |geekygeeky]
[sounds |peaches-da inch]

Have you...
[x]been drunk.
[x]smoked pot.
[x]smooched a member of the opposite sex. (fuck yea)
[x]made out with a member of the opposite sex. (o god yes)
[x]done more things with a member of the opposite sex. (I can safely say yes)
[x]rode in a taxi.
[x]been dumped.
[x]gotten your heart broken.
[x]shoplifted.
[x]been fired.
[x]had a job.
[x]been in a fist fight.
[x]snuck out of your parent's house.
[]been arrested.
[x]stole something from your job.
[x]celebrated new years in times square.
[x]went on a blind date.
[x]smoked a cigarette. (all the time)
[x]gone on an airplane by yourself.
[x]broken a bone.
[x}had sex in a car. (very recently in fact)
[x]White lied to a friend.
[ x]had a crush on a teacher.
[ x]celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[x]been to europe.
[ x]taken caffiene pills.
[x]been to disney world/land.
[x]had a crush on someone you hardly knew.
[x]been to california.
[x]been skinny dipping.
[x]regretted something.
[x]peed on someones lawn. (on a school and car once too)
[x]skipped school.
[x]thrown up from drinking.
[ ]lost your sibling.
[x ]smooched a member of the same sex.
[ x]made out with a member of the same sex.
[ x]done more things with a member of the same sex.
[ x]been in a car accident.
[x]partied for days and days straight. (all summer to be honest)
[x]stayed up all night with a friend.
[x]had a family member die.
[x]played 'clue'.
[x]had a sleepover party.
[x]went ice skating.
[x]dropped xtasy.
[ x]been cheated on
[x]had a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[x]had a threesome.
[ x]had a quinceanera.
[x] have a car.
[x] drove.
[x] had a conservation with a police officer
[ x] have grey hair
[x] do prank phone calls
Do you...
[x]have a crush
[x]have a dog.
[ x]have a cat.
[x]have your own room.
[ x]paint your nails.
play a sport.
[]play more than one sport.
[]watch sports on tv.
[x]have a fav. group/singer/artist.
[x]have more than 1 best friend.
[x]get good grades.
[x ]play an instrument.
[ xhave slippers.
[x]wear boxers.
[ x]wear black eyeliner.
[x]like the color blue.
[x ]like the color yellow.
[ x]cyber.
[ x]like to read.
[ x]like to write.
[x]have a cell phone.
[ x]have a laptop.
[ x]have a pager.
[x]have a girlfriend
Are you...
[ ]ugly.
[x]Handsome.
[x]ok.
[x]bored.
[x]happy.
[ x]bilingual.
[x]white.
[ ]black.
[ ]mexican/puerto rican.
[ ]asian.
[ ]short.
[ x]normal.
[x]tall.
[ ]grounded.
[ ]sick.
[ x]lazy.
[ ]scared to die
[ ]sleepy.
[ ]annoyed.
[ x]on the phone.
[ x]in your room.
[x]drinking something.
[ x]eating something.
[ x]in your pjs.
[ x]ticklish.
[x]listening to music.
[ ]homophobic.
[ ]racist.
[x]Emo
[x]in love.
[ ]recovering from heart break.
[]straight
[ ]bisexual
[x ]gay
[x]friendly
[x]known in ur area
[]considered "normal"
[x]glad this is over
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(no subject) [Nov. 14th, 2004|09:04 am]
andrew
[state of mind |hyperhyper]
[sounds |rasputina: dwarfStar]

GOOOOD morning. last night was super fun. mercedes and i saw bridget jones's with my mom. it was really great. better than the first one.than last night we went to wayne and met up with brent and his girlfriend lauren and morgan and we went to minellas which was really nice cause we were all starving. we went back to mercedes house and we played strip poker. and i saw BRENT's PENIS!!!!!!!!(:->)so today im going with cedes and my dad to germantown to the woodmere art museum for a sort of really cool exhibit, featuring some of my art. im sooo excited!!!! phantom of the opera is gonna be a movie! i used to be OBSESSED with it. so today should be fun. i think im just gonna relax today. i got so high on friday night that my eyes were burning. so im gonna take it easy for a while( cause my doctor put me on wellbutrinSR) so im not gonna fuck with that.
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THE FUCKING ELECTION! [Nov. 3rd, 2004|10:08 pm]
andrew
[state of mind |highon life.:)]
[sounds |ani diFranco: TIPTOE]

finally the election is over. FUCK BUSH. he sucks. end of story.

todaay i went to the woodmere mueseam and my art class went out to lunch. it was some GO0D times. woot.
im tired. goddamnt mercedes why aren;t you awake.!!!!!!!!!! ahhhh im sooooooooo itchy. i probably shouldn't take dxm again. i love you all. but i must take my leave.
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THE FUCKING ELECTION! [Nov. 3rd, 2004|10:08 pm]
andrew
[state of mind |highon life.:)]
[sounds |ani diFranco: TIPTOE]

finally the election is over. FUCK BUSH. he sucks. end of story.

todaay i went to the woodmere mueseam and my art class went out to lunch. it was some GO0D times. woot.
im tired. goddamnt mercedes why aren;t you awake.!!!!!!!!!! ahhhh im sooooooooo itchy. i probably shouldn't take dxm again. i love you all. but i must take my leave.
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(no subject) [Oct. 16th, 2004|01:46 pm]
andrew
[state of mind |drunkas a skunk]
[sounds |lunatic clam- leave u far behind]

OMG..... im soooo drunk. i had 3 rum and cokes..... and im supposed to go out with my mom soon
shit. anyways we're picking mercedes up and then we're going to margret kuo's for lunch..:) and on tues i 'm getting my permit!!!!! DRIVING!!!!!!! wooooooooooo
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(no subject) [Oct. 13th, 2004|11:24 pm]
andrew
Forbidden

What Style Of Love Are You? (manga image result)

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YAY DRUG FREE IS THE WAY TO BEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! [Oct. 13th, 2004|08:02 pm]
andrew
[state of mind |highon life]
[sounds | stromkern- number 3 i think?]

omg. i love mercedes soooooo much.



so its wednesday and its my 4th day of detox. haven't touched drugs in 4 days yeah!!!! so now im going to gym everyday.
lifting weights, cause i'm gonna BE SOOOOO buff bitches. yeah so I haven't posted in awhile, because i've been really busy. um i saw trina yesterday and she was all like " omg . you have a girlfriend!!!!????! but you're GAY!!?" she's so confused. i love it

so on friday mercedes is coming over for dinner and i'm making stirfry! YAY veggies!
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(no subject) [Sep. 26th, 2004|04:24 am]
andrew
[state of mind |impressedimpressed]
[sounds |future bible heros- oh what a dream it was]

Hey everyone!! I love you all. This is Mercedes. I though I'd post in Andrew's journal, because there isn't anything that we don't share. It's almost sick how enmeshed we are... Today we actually got asked if we were brother/sister. CREEPY. WOOOOOOO. It's really early (4 30am) and Andrew is comming over at 11 today so maybe I should sleep soon. Maybe not. We'll see. ♥
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(no subject) [Sep. 21st, 2004|06:15 pm]
andrew
[state of mind |sadsad]
[sounds |death cab for cutie: we looked like giants]

ugh im such a mess right now. i just need to get it all out. so the past few days have been hell because of school and stuff. i miss mercedes alot. and i am really worried about her. anyway this morning my alarm clock woke me up obnoxiously,at 6:00am! wtf. i hit the fucking snooze button and slept for another fifteen minutes. i had a weird dream about me and mercedes and how we were all of a sudden at our wedding and everyone was happy and i was crying because i didn't know what to do. i just feel so bad for her having to put up with my bullshit. i'm feeling really sucidal lately. and my dad isn't helping one bit. he's so controlling. maybe i don't want to talk to him right now. why does he insist on prodding into EVERYTHING!!!!!???? god. i wish it could all end. right now i feel like STOPPING. you know just sleeping forever. but still dreaming. an artificial life. MERCEDES I LOVE YOU. and i hope you understand that because if it wasn't for you .... i just don't think anything would be real anymore and i really don't wanna lose you. i want what you want , marrige and independency. but fuck all now.
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(no subject) [Sep. 10th, 2004|06:33 pm]
andrew
[state of mind |artisticartistic]
[sounds |death cab for cutie- sound of settling]

CONFLUENCE. today we had confluence. it was okay i suppose because i got to do that human gyro thing and spin around. ah. school's okay i guess my chem teacher is slow as fuck and shakey. his name is dr. schindler. HA NAZIS!!!!.:)i have a really HOT history teacher.

so today i told the bus driver to go down the other road which was my road and she did and i had her stop at my house
she was like THATS SOOOOO RUDE i flipped her off and went inside. BITCH.

i got home and i told my dad i was going to need a ride over to mercedes. NO you have to stay home for dinner. GRRRRR. parents suck.

so at confluence i got this kids sn
he's cool his names sam
HOTTIE

but i guess thats all for today i'm going to wayne tonight and hopefully gonna DEX
i need to be fucked up tonight.

TOODLES
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(no subject) [Jun. 17th, 2004|11:59 pm]
andrew
How to make a slut_machine
Ingredients:

1 part annoYing gay boy

3 parts MINDLESS BANTER

1 part KISSES!!!!
Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add lustfulness to taste! Do not overindulge!
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(no subject) [Feb. 16th, 2004|11:18 pm]
andrew
[state of mind |drunkdrunk]
[sounds |the fuel - Sneakerpimps]

so yeah, i haven't updated in a while. i miss chris, i called him the other night and we talked for like 3 hours. i'm in love with mercedes, she is my fiancee, although i'm gay, and shes a lesbian, we're in love.
i miss her alot right now. I LOVE YOU MERCEDES.i've been sulking all night because shes gone.. im tired i'm gonna go to bed.
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Vacation... [Dec. 30th, 2003|10:29 pm]
andrew
[state of mind |draineddrained]
[sounds |none. unfortunatly.]

I'm up here in conecticut having fun with my niece's maiya and katie. They're asleep right now i just put them to bed about an hour ago. i read them boks and told them stories and they were asleep like that. SNAP.but im downstairs doing nothing on the computer. I'm staying here for new years but im going to that DRACULAS BALL at shampoo on the third.:) whee. my first dracs ball. i've been to shampoo before. its a pretty tightly crammed place. i went with loryn last year for spring break. it was bunches of fun.i've been thinking... maybe i'll go to dance next saturday but i can't decide yet because im sleeping over my friends that night...oh well.
my brother came home. it was nice to see him again. he and his friend brett came over and we chilled. i miss him now.
oh yeah.. on friday this boy I like (greg) who know's i like him... was all up on this other kid brendan. that really pissed me off considering the fact that i was supposed to go on a date with him last friday. ugh. sometimes people suck ass. i miss camp. ALOT. i keep having these strange dreams about ben m. and migeul. CREEPY. mercedes ( queen of darkness) came over on saturday. we went shopping and shit it was funny because i saw people i haven't seen in a year. OMG at msi i saw my ex ex ex boyfriend. dan. damn him. we had everything going for us too. hes just weirded out by other people. a real closet case. ugh damn parents. so yeah.. im gonna go to bed now because im tired and I wanna call mercedes before i go to sleep. HAPPY new YEAR.. thank god.zzZZZZZzzzz
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(no subject) [Dec. 22nd, 2003|11:09 am]
andrew
[state of mind |gigglygiggly]
[sounds |Garbage: When I Grow Up]

so it's monday which sucks because i have nothing to do . oh well. i saw MSI on thursday! w/ mercedes. it was soooo much fun . i saw my ex there (dan) he's so damn cute now. but i think he was with someone. i had the flu since wednesday but i saw msi while coughing my head off it was funny
omg i made out with jimmy. who hasn't though. hee.:) talk to me baby.
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(no subject) [Dec. 15th, 2003|10:32 pm]
andrew
[state of mind |annoyed.annoyed]
[sounds |Fischerspooner: Emerge]

ergh.. my dad is pising me off. dad go gag yourself with a SPOON. ugh i hate him
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come what may. i will love you .... [Dec. 15th, 2003|08:24 am]
andrew
[state of mind |exhaustedexhausted]
[sounds |the QUEEN of THE dAMned soundtrack.... on a loop O.o]

woo hoo only 3 more days of school....WooT. oh god wayne has pissed me off once to many times. I HATE HIM. blah blah blah.

mindless self indulgence concert is ON THURSDAY wooooooooooo can't wait.
jimmy is my god/godess. lol he's so cute.

my cats are so silly.
so yeah..
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hello sports fans. [Dec. 6th, 2003|02:54 am]
andrew
[state of mind |mellowmellow]
[sounds |vnv- left behind.]

today was fun. my lovey dovey-hunny bunny ( mercedes ) came over. <3. we went sledding well i went falling down the street and she was just sitting there throwing snow at me. it was frickin fucking godamn freezing- ass cold outside. we got bored and came inside. then shortly after that went back outside to have a fag. we have no more!:( I supposed to get them tonight but we couldn't because WE GOT SNOWED IN . wow what a day. we watched movies all day. good ones like pulp fiction,requiem for a dream,FROM HELL,MOULIN ROUGE. we just sat around all day and watch the telly. it was fun . my daddy made us pasta and soup eggplant parmesean, and other goodies. my dad kept getting on my case Because i'm an idiot.
i put popcorn in a colander... sto0pid me.mercedes yelled at me for it and my dad got involved....NOT PRETTY. oh well time flies i must be gone.
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SLUTS SURVEYS [Dec. 5th, 2003|03:12 am]
andrew
[state of mind |accomplishedaccomplished]
[sounds |the tv]

Last Time You..
Really Smiled : earlier today at pod
Laughed: in ny on broadway
Cried: tonight:c
Danced: tonight-im a dancer
Had sex: last friday
Drank: last night(yay screwballs)
Smoked: like 5 mins ago.^.^
Watched your favorite movie: wednesday
Had a nightmare: last night
Last thing you had to drink : fruit2o uhm citrus balst or some shit.
Last time you showered : today
Last thing you ate : crispy scallion chicken.

Regular Shit
Name: andrew edward deitch
Do you like it?: not in the slightest
Nicknames: peaches,prideboi
Screen names: xcovetmymindx,xxslutmachinexx
Birthday: 8.3.88
Sign: Leo
Location: west chester pennsylvania
School: hill top prep
Crush: jake,brendan,ken
Virgin?: no
Natural hair color: dark brown
Current hair color : atomic red-ish
Eye color : green
Height : 5'8"
Birthplace : bryn mawr
Shoe size : 10 1/2

Family
Parents: jackie,marc
Siblings: david,kenny,merrie,ali
Live with: dad marc
Favorite relative: cousin marissa and grand mom mimi

Favorites
Color: red
Day: thursday
Month: may
Movie: donnie darko
Food: gyoza
Season: summer
Drink: cherry coke:)
Veggie: baby spinach
TV Show: daria
Radio Station: y-100

Store:
Animal: kitty
Flower: rose
State: california

Love and Relationships
Do you have a bf/gf?: i did
Do you have a crush?: yes
How long have you liked him/her?: 4 years
Why do you like this person?: i think he's cute funny amazing in bed and a cool kid
How long was your longest relationship?: 1 1/2
Who was your first love?: jake
What do you miss about them?: his smell

The Past
What is the one thing you would change about your past?: i would not have been so horny all the time.
Last thing you heard: the ahn trio playing in my cd player
Last thing you saw on tv: real world
Last thing you said: fuck you ! to my dad
Who is the last person you saw?: my day
Who is the last person you kissed?: jake
Who is the last person you hugged?: jake
Who was the last person you were on the phone with?: mercedes
What is the last TV show you saw?: the oc
What is the last song you heard?: transylvainin concubinr

The Present
What are you wearing?: grey pjs and a
What are you doing?falling aslewwp
Who are you talking to?: nopenope
Where are you?:
Are you online?:
How are you feeling?:

Future
What day is it tomorrow?:friday!
What are you going to do after this?: go out
Who are you going to talk to?:mercedes
where are you going to go?: mya
How old will you be when you graduate?:18
What do you wanna be?:a musican,dancer,actor
Where will you be in 25 years?: dunno

Who..
Makes you laugh the most:mercedes
Makes you smile:mercedes
Gives you a funny feeling when you see them:jake
Has a crush on you:dunno
Do you have a crush on: jake

Best
cologne:candies for men:)
perfume:night
kiss: ben
romantic memory: not many?

Have You..
Fallen for your best friend?: mmhmm
Made out with JUST a friend?: mmhm
Been rejected?: yep
Been in love?: always have
Been in lust?: all the time
Used someone?: once
Been used?: all the time
Cheated on someone?: yes
Been cheated on?:yes
Been kissed?: yes... have you ever had a brain
Done something you regret?: lots.

Who Was The Last Person..
You touched?: my dad
You talked to?: dad
You hugged?: my mom
You instant messaged?: joanna
You kissed?: jake
You had sex with?: jake
You yelled at?: dad
You laughed with?: brother
Who broke your heart?: ex dan
who told you they loved you?: jake

Other
Do you write in cursive or print?: print
Are you a lefty or a righty?:righty
What is your sexual preference?: gay
What piercings do you have?: ear(right)
Any tattoos?: nope
Do you drive?: nope
do you have glasses or braces?:glasses
Did you like this survey?: fuck no.

Physical Appearance
How many fillings do you have?: like 3
Do you think you're good looking?: kinda
Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: no
Do you look like any celebrities?: johnny depp
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thursday is the coolest yet most troublesome day of the week.:: [Dec. 5th, 2003|02:25 am]
andrew
[state of mind |exhaustedexhausted]
[sounds |rasputina-donner party]

Today, I didn't go to school. I wasn't feeling well. I am still not feeling well. oh well fuck it. so today my dad makes me get up, get out of bed get dressed. he figured out that i wasn't feeling up to par and let me sleep and stay home. nay. we didnt stay home he tooked to school because it was damn pcture day. i hate pictures. they steal my soul. so i went to school. my dad had to come all they fucking way back just because my teachers all agreed that i was sick and HAD to go home. fuck them.all i wanted was to stay in one place.later in the day i went to my shrink. we played fucking scategories junior. sigh. why do i even bother anymore. but yes. the day turned around. no school tomorow dad said. yay. after the shrink: got back in the damn car, went to philly to a resturant called "pod" it was like asian fusion. I went to the record exchange shop right across the street and i bought thanks for the ether. rasputina. and evolve . ani difranco. i love her.shes so cool.anyway, went to that place i got a chai at starbucks. it was burnt so i threw it out. ew burnt chai. went to the annenburg center to go see the parsons dance company . they kicked dancer butt. there was this one piece where they timed the music with a strobe light and had this woman jump around and it would hit her when she was off the ground and it looked like she was flying. i wish i could fly..... the new zero.
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:spawn again::::: [Dec. 1st, 2003|11:06 pm]
andrew
[state of mind |depresseddepressed]
[sounds |VNV______ we CAME to DANCE]

i'm sitting here in my room trying to figure out if im actually alive...
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